Excited and sad

Excited for the newness that is Fall.The beginning of school, warmer clothing, comfort foods (itching for it to get cool enough to fire up the crockpot!). Sad becasue it was a fabulous Summer. Long evenings at the pool, staying up late and playing until the sun went down, making a dinner out of tomatoes, watermelon and corn on the cobb. Back to routine, schedules, UGH!
I'll be back...work is invading...

3 is going to kill me.

Yup, that's me...a poet.

What to do with a wonderful, defiant, sweet, defiant, funny, defiant child? Did I mention she is defiant? I am at the end of my rope with her. She is getting dangerous, maddening and we are all equally frustrated. Especially Julia. Sweet little Julia gets little attention because we are dealing with the monster most of the time. It breaks my heart.
On the bright side...I took the advice of a dear old friend (thanks Jackie Callahan!) and started a star chart. Started upon waking and there was not one fight so far. She got out the door and we are all happy. The prize for 10 starts today??? Ice Cream from the truck at the pool! One of her favorite things to do.

Well, wish up luck. I hate to with away 3 because the wonderful side of 3 really is a wonder to watch. I am simply wishing away the rotten side of 3.

Need less week and more weekend.

I feel like the weeks crawl and the weekends fly. I love playing with the girls so much. Learning the art of slowing down and taking in moments as if they could last for ever is a work in progress. At the same time I am trying to avoid the sadness I feel when I remember that nothing lasts forever. I suppose that is a good thing when it comes to the rotten stuff life has to offer. Babies do not fall into that category. even if said babies are 18 months and 3 years old.

Le Sigh.

Limbo

I hate waiting on others, especially when I have motivation to finish a project and it depends on another person. I want to be done with this most recent project so I can have a month off before Summer of hell begins. Never in my life did I think I would be excited to work on school work. Yes, I am sick in the head. Compulsive to an extent. I need something to make me less obsessive and manic about my work and enjoy this time I have little to do.

Blah

Today is the 21st anniversary of my Dads death. One would think that after 21 years it gets any easier. It does not. I still miss him just as much as I did 20 years ago. What is terribly sad, I don't remember what he look like anymore. Le sigh. On with the day, box of tissues at my side.

Stir Crazy

The pending warm and sunny weather is making me want to run around in circles. I love this hopeful weather. I am daydreaming of popsicles, pool parties, the beach and a decent sun tan. I suppose I should add a nod to margaritas as well.

Circus

John and I took Caroline to the circus today. Other than forgetting the camera and the video camera it was a wonderful experience. C loved the live animals the best in addition to meeting the clowns up close and in person. If you arrive 1 hour early you can play with the clowns, meet some of the animals, try on costumes etc. We spent WAY too much money on cotton candy, lemonade, popcorn, pink flashing light wands, a DVD, a program, a stuffed elephant, a helicopter thingy (yes that is the official name...okay not so much) oh and a family picture on an elephant...a mini plastic elephant. WHOOT. All for a child who will remember none of it. But it was a blast anyway!